At the worst of it, all there is is pain. I'm trying to sit up and type, and every word wants to come out PAIN. It is all that I can hear in my head. Pain is all that I can see. It is all that I can smell. Pain is the only thing that I can taste - I didn't know it was supposed to have a taste - but it does, and it is so bitter. How did it get everywhere? It gets into every tiny corner of my life and makes things impossible, ruins opportunities, kills me a little bit more. Fuck... this is my life.
How do YOU keep the pain from becoming everywhere and everything?
How do YOU keep the pain from becoming everywhere and everything?
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Re: 5 Senses of Pain
Thu, May 3, 2007 - 1:01 AMI am a nudist at home, at all times. It allows me the chance to daily experience sensations from my body that are different from pain. It allows my focus to shift. Fortunately, I have neighbors who are not offended and who visit me in my home and allow me to visit them in theirs downstairs, nude. I thank them for being so accepting of me that they are comfortable allowing me this freedom.
I am the luckiest guy on the planet. -
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Re: 5 Senses of Pain
Sun, May 13, 2007 - 2:44 AMDear luckiest guy on the planet.
Good on you for finding something that makes you say that!
I don't know that I have it in me to go solely in the buff, but I definitely appreciate the idea of being able to feel ANYTHING but the pain.
I used to fantasize about getting into car accidents (or getting myself into a car accident) so that I could feel pain so bad that it distracted me from this constant regular pain. Is that as sick and twisted as it sounds? Probably. But come on, the more fucked up I get, the more they will knock me out and I won't feel anything at all. To feel nothing at all - that was NEVER a goal of mine before all of this. Crap.
Z
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Re: 5 Senses of Pain
Thu, August 30, 2007 - 12:36 AMI know what you mean and I try to distract myself with activity and/or conversation and/or entertainment and so on but sad to say the only thing I found to truly help has been a narcotic painkiller called oxycodone..It has helped me to lead an almost normal life..I know that taking pills is not an ideal answer but I found and find that it is better than screaming which is what I would be doing without it..GOOD LUCK and best wishes to you......ich aka ichameleon aka john woodward -
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Re: 5 Senses of Pain
Thu, August 30, 2007 - 1:17 PMVodka and weed helps too LOL
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